It was only in his mid-twenties, after coming out as gay aged 19, that he began to seek professional help. There was no platform on which I could be a gay man and feel proud of who I was and normalise my relationship and make them equal to someone else at that point. And so Luke set about trying to find this boy: He would go after school, while also in denial about being gay, and meet men there. Alienated and isolated from children his age and fearing that it would be unsafe to tell anyone he was gay, Luke kept quiet, the closet forming around him, preventing any safe, early explorations of romance and attachment.
At around 11 years old, he was standing at the urinal when another man molested him.
As with many of the men who spoke to BuzzFeed News, the time spent in toilets was for Michael a parallel existence, a break from everyday life. So it gave me something, but it was tainted with darkness and shame. Share On tumblr Share On tumblr.
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